raya & exam September 6, 2009

it’s been 16 ramadhan already,still my “friend” have not showing up.adoi.ni bole jadi case raya 2tahun lepas…good news is that,I haven’t skip any of puasa yet.maybe it is caused by stress and lines of project and presentation that I have to lead this week.huwaa.I’m so packed!!

• Consumer Behaviour – Report+Presentation
• Industrial Marketing – Report+Presentation
• Digital Media – Website development
• Adv.Managerial Stats – Quiz
• Organization Behaviour – Presentation

Oleh kerana itulah segala meeting or gathering or janji berbuka puasa or birthday celebration bersama classmate,housemate and schoolmate terpaksa di delay ataupun dicancelkan.I do think I din perform well for this semester tho I am still struggling.Dengan macam2 drama n perkara2 yg xbest,aku still gagah nak face sume bende nih.

Wish for a laptop August 9, 2009

mood:I wish I could have the extra hour to spend for my load of task that seems to pile up.haihhh.

My short break was filled with trip to Redang Island with my ex-housemate Aimi,Fiqa and my roomie Cheah,and not to forget Achap n Zul.However,the trip was a bit intense and quit gloomy coz some of us were sick including myself who vommit at the last minute tho we managed to finish our water activity somehow.yepee.get to learn to snorkle for the first time and it’s a must , next time for me to have that olympus m digicam.After the Redang,we headed our way to KB,Kelantan in order to meet our darling mother to be,Kak Shila <<another ex-hmates and she looks glowing that I barely notice her cute 9months bump. Menanti hari lagi..Well..well.. I think I let the photo do the talking~Soon to be update and a bunch of THANK YOU to NINA GARCIA a.k.a Nina Hafrina for lending us her genius d-slr and Cheah for her effort on making the trip happening.SPLASH!!!!weee..sniff sniff..I’m starting to look for another location for future getaway and my condition now is much much much better and more happier than ever before.It was the new cheese that visible after all and I hope it could be my final station in the maze. Less than 2 years before I could move out. I’ll wait with patience, and wooooaaaahhhh and that goes w/out saying.mwuah

xoxo

daddy always taught me to be more patience in life,& it was all the thing that he said that I did. Allah Maha Kaya.

One fine day,truth will be visible to the humans eyes.

Luna River July 19, 2009

I’m 21 going 22 this year and I’m currently trying to motivate myself to overcome what need to overcome and not overdo what not to redo and to regain those strength from losing it permanently.At this point of time,loyalty,honesty and trustworthy are no longer important meaning of words in humans vocab.There are just meaningless.People tend to be cruel each day and its all caused by cruel and mean people who gives such impact to those naive little human.Its a cycle that exist in any days.Somebody take it on u,u feel hurt and without your intention,u took it on others,which u r no different than the 1st one,isn’t it?

Yearn to commit in something takes  full commitment and passion.No exposure needed to show that u r into ‘that particular thing’,it takes the wholehearted and honesty that u put to nurture,to let it grow and to have faith in it. Its important to own the ‘trusty’ that u gave in and that matters so much that u’ll have no worries about it.The nature will certainly play their role and takes it action.Thus,that is something that people normally take for granted.They needed the glasses to see the clear view from different angle with different perception.However,when the ‘wind’ swipe it away,visible it will be to the human eyes.Then they started to realize how important that was for them to hold on to.

Though,experience taught human to take good lesson and not to repeat the mistake but I was mistaken to think so.Poor thing u know,an adult should behave like they ’supposed’ to be,to take responsibility from the beginning of act til the end,to be able to foreseen any circumstances that might occur,prepared to handle some unexpected situation with their gifted sense and life lesson and finally,to act when they supposed to act and to stay calm when they are indeed to and stick to this value called patience.I believed in a sense where I’m in such unseen condition,I need to stay patience and think well before I act.In which,patience is the ultimate value that all humans need to plant it,in themselves.

Even though u face enormous condition and the feeling of being cheated and “betrayed” by the most person u believed in,bear with it darling,because some day,one fine day there will be a judgement day for u little human.The rewards of being patience is the calmness and peace in mind.Believing in God will never fail u.

After all,21 years of life was filled with so much drama,stories,experience,injuries and valuable lesson which I intend to hear it to my love one someday.I want them to take the positive value and appreciate every seconds in life that normal people tend to not look at it that much.I’m proud that I’m stronger each time the tornado hits me.I’m proud that I took them down when I was in battlefield and I’m certainly proud that I am what I am.Those river that I’ve build for almost quarter century has now filled with such clear water that could purify any mud and life creature that able to live in such crystal river called Luna.

The end of today.

The new journey awaits tomorrow.

very quick one July 12, 2009

1)load of assignment(s) menunggu
2)need a new benchmark
3)excited for Redang trip
4)rindu rindu rindu kat hmates
5)CAN’T WAIT TO FINISH!!
6)xlupe juga pada kawan MMU Melaka, Fara n Ecah n Erine
penuh perut duk makan buah yang dipetik dari kebun dikampung melakoo

-end-

white women vs malay women.what say u? June 11, 2009

**taken from nodee’s blog & it will definitely hit you on the head.thanks nodee**

White Women vs Malay Women
Via email:

Dear Editor, I am sorry but I would like to challenge some of your Malay male readers. I am a White female who is engaged to a Malay male-good-looking, educated and loving. I just don’t understand a lot of Malay female’s attitudes about our relationship. My man decided he wanted me because the pickings amongst Malay women were slim to none.

As he said they were either too fat, too loud, too mean, too argumentative, too needy, too materialistic or carrying too much excess baggage. Before I became engaged, whenever I went out I was constantly approached by Malay men, willing to wine and dine me and give me the world. If Malay women are so up in arms about us being with their men, why don’t they look at themselves and make some changes. I am tired of the dirty looks I get and snide remarks when we’re out in public. I would like to hear from some Malay men about why we are so appealing and coveted by them. Bryant Gumbel just left his wife of, 26 years for one of us. Charles Barkley, Scottie Pippen, the model Tyson Beckford, Montell Williams, Quincy Jones, James Earl Jones, Harry Belafonte, Sydney Poitier, Kofi Anan, Cuba Gooding Jr., Don Cornelius, Berry Gordy, Billy Blanks, Larry Fishburne, Wesley Snipes, …I could go on and on.

But, right now, I’m a little angry and that is why I wrote this so hurriedly. Don’t be mad with us White women because so many of your men want us. Get your acts together and learn from us and we may lead you to treat your men better. If I’m wrong, Malay men, let me know.

Disgusted White Girl, Somewhere in Bangsar.

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it’s too much June 10, 2009

Dia.

Dia is optimistic.

Dia keeps on believing in herself.

Dia thinks that dia can change the world and make it to a better place.

Dia is bubbly, helpful and friendly.

Dia laughs on jokes that dia barely understand.

Dia is idea less, dia will only get there on ten.

Dia could be irritating and annoying,but dia is caring.

Dia cares about things around dia but dia act like dia don’t.

Dia feels guilty and dia does feel sorry.

Dia hardly get mad but dia won’t let it be long.

Dia is stupid,idiot and baka-des to fall easily on craps.

Dia is naive but dia never fail to keep on trusting people.

Dia keeps on trusting and believing.

Dia never stop doing it and giving up on hopes.

But the fact that dia keeps on having ‘those’ in dia state of mind,

………dia devastated. It sucks.

“Although it sounds like a poem to me and I like it because it sounds so silly,which what I’m feeling now.hurmm.I don’t feel on going back for new semester. T_T”

p/s:  417am,i still can’t sleep.while browsing through friendster, I noticed that one bulletin was posted,saying that the result will come out…..like TODAY!!!shitty!and baby,i’m still missing you,minho.

kembali May 26, 2009

well well.lame xmerajin2kan jari jemari exercise di papan papan kekunci laptop pinjam nih.just a quick update!

1. saye hidup lagi,masih waras dan maintain begini
2. I still feel that i’m 18 in heart.
3. sebenarnye malas sangat nak buat bende yang memerlukan commitment yang tinggi,sedangkan  badan sendiri pun tidak ter urus rapi.
4. to-do-list : hmm.ape ye ape ye.juz nak peace in mind mcm baring2 tgk sunset kat  beach,naek basikal n park kat tulips garden dgn weather yg suam suam sejuk,maen2 snow dgn rascal ..arghh bestnye..n sume tu sgt best dan menjadi real jikalau anda adalah seorang penganggur yang kaya raya.haha.
5. this morning pulak 27th may,i’ll be seating 4 my 2nd last exam paper which i’m excited bout it – Man. Stats
6. pelagi,haaa!!yesyes!!shout out to all my girls kak aimy,cik fiqun,kak shila,farahanna,erine n ecah kat melaka tu dan yang tidak den sebut,tapi tetap igt kat korang.eh,xlupe kepada roomie sengal, cikah sayang ye.=P harap2la trip aug kite jadi k.
7. at the moment,i’m addicted with this kdrama “Hana Yori Dango”. love it love it.ost die pun sgt best dan melodramatic habis!xkisahlah if i’m d last person yang melayan bende nih.:p
8. Bende yang selalu bermain kat pikiran nih,kenapa eh orang  suke je nak menunjuk & berperangai self-centered.They talked crap and things I don’t like to hear.They even compete for nothing and yeah,the best part of all,they speak and act with pride.Confidence tinggi kot.Asal korang bahagia dahla.Haha. Oleh sebab itu,aku lebih rela jadi seorang pendiam dan invisible. My other side of being cynical has always been in me.
9. Ape apepun challenge or life orang dalam cerita,aku xpenah rase yang real life == ape yg dipaparkan dalam drama. Semuanya omong kosong aje. Create story == earn money || ++ sedapkan story == cari populariti ; semuanya betul pada sesetengah pihak jela,well macam most likely jer.Papelah korang,cobalah hidup dengan aman sket.
10. well well,tadi kate quick,but macam panjang jek.haha.I just wish and pray to God that I’ll pass all my Beta subject with flying colors.
11. Goodluck to all and Happy Holiday!akhir entry,disusuli dengan gambar si rascal nih. Oh Tuhan, aku suka dengan ketinggian nya.

die ade lesung pipit opposite saye.=P

Lee Min Ho – Gu Jun Pyo in Boys Over Flower (Kdrama)

Papepun, Josh Harnett, Bi Rain & Ikuta Toma tetap dalam list jugak.

p/s: rindu jugak nak camwhore,kite same nodee!tapi rase cam da tue je nak buat sume tu.haha.jaa~

i’m dying March 31, 2009

“Thank u for everything ’sayang’. U give me all your love and kind. U r the air that I breathe. Without U,I’m lost. I am fading away. We’ve been through so many hard times. Eventhough U r Hell to me,but at the end of the day, U r my Heaven. Thank U ’sayang’. This pain that I bare, the bleed that I feel..It is all because of U, Uni!!!!!!!”

Ur killing me with ur very good management in putting my 3 midterm paper one day in a row u ^*(&@#*(@. and best part was that my 3 paper is Finance, Account and MacroEconomic u “PANDAI”.

menemui jalan buntu January 28, 2009

Dengan nama Allah Yg Lagi Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani

At this moment,I’m holding back and hardly to think rationally.I’m becoming weaker and weaker as day goes by.I’m lost and couldn’t turn myself into a person who is capable of handling most of anything,like i used to be,not so long time ago.I’m feel more insecure.I hate to handle this situation,I’m outta of  the mood,being emotional as those ‘people’ return to piss me off.They should be remove from this surface.I’m fcuking hate to see them talking trash about me,me n me n me and me.My dad told me to be more patience with His test.argh.for the Love of God,I’m only a human being who is weak in most of everything.I have become a stranger in my own house eversince when?what?,eversince their appearance.

I even never proud to use those taboo words but I can’t help it,I have prayed and still,wish that you will give me a soothing calmness and peaceful in mind.I just can’t take it anymore.My patience is in between the line.I needed guidance and someone that I could turn to.Someone that I could feel secure,to listen to my burden and to feel care.Mom.(T_T)I know I’ve making quite number of good friends,but I wish I could never burden them with my problems.Its just a story to tell and to share.I’m big enough to not whining like a small kid does but I’ve feelings and emotion that its out of my control.God,please lead me to the right path where I can become more patience to any of obstacle occur,to feel better and happier and to know when is right for me to act and to just keep quite.Bless me ya Allah.I’m all alone in this and I’m weak to get through of your test.Ya Allah!Make me strong!~Amin~

lagu yang sedang berputar dikepala: The Voice Within and I Turn To You by Christina Aguilera, Why “Fullhouse OST”, Matahariku “Jelita OST” dan lagu2 yg pilu. haihhh

Thank You 2008 Part I December 31, 2008

It’s been a year since I last welcomed 2008 in Munich,Germany with my big sister,we really had a great time.Its been a great year for me with all the happy moments,dramas and experiences that I hardly forget.2008 has given me lots of memories that I hardly erase; eg: family strength,friendship,fact of life and some lesson that taught me to be a better person,I guess and to become less selfish,stubborn and to plan a proper future.Life is about thinking one step ahead,where you look at the past and learn from it,you cherish the present and you decide the next step for the future.