Dengan nama Allah Yg Lagi Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani
At this moment,I’m holding back and hardly to think rationally.I’m becoming weaker and weaker as day goes by.I’m lost and couldn’t turn myself into a person who is capable of handling most of anything,like i used to be,not so long time ago.I’m feel more insecure.I hate to handle this situation,I’m outta of the mood,being emotional as those ‘people’ return to piss me off.They should be remove from this surface.I’m fcuking hate to see them talking trash about me,me n me n me and me.My dad told me to be more patience with His test.argh.for the Love of God,I’m only a human being who is weak in most of everything.I have become a stranger in my own house eversince when?what?,eversince their appearance.
I even never proud to use those taboo words but I can’t help it,I have prayed and still,wish that you will give me a soothing calmness and peaceful in mind.I just can’t take it anymore.My patience is in between the line.I needed guidance and someone that I could turn to.Someone that I could feel secure,to listen to my burden and to feel care.Mom.(T_T)I know I’ve making quite number of good friends,but I wish I could never burden them with my problems.Its just a story to tell and to share.I’m big enough to not whining like a small kid does but I’ve feelings and emotion that its out of my control.God,please lead me to the right path where I can become more patience to any of obstacle occur,to feel better and happier and to know when is right for me to act and to just keep quite.Bless me ya Allah.I’m all alone in this and I’m weak to get through of your test.Ya Allah!Make me strong!~Amin~
lagu yang sedang berputar dikepala: The Voice Within and I Turn To You by Christina Aguilera, Why “Fullhouse OST”, Matahariku “Jelita OST” dan lagu2 yg pilu. haihhh
